Slowly, slowly, stitch by stitch my need and desire to create stuff is coming back.
When you lose the urge to do the thing that calms your busy mind, the thing that gives you happiness, the thing that you look forward to after a busy week at work then you wonder if it will ever return.
It was the same when my dad died, I had no desire to create anything. Then all of a sudden I was back on a making roll.
I just have to learn to go with it more.
Learn that there's a lot in life we have no control over. I'm steadily learning that letting go can be empowering.
This week I've finished and worn the Schooldays Top, finished and worn an stitched cardi and started a couple of new things too.
With Miss Millie's 13th birthday looming preparations need to be made. There's nothing she wants other than a vintage tea party and as her parents are seriously skint I think thank heavens I can sew and she likes what I make her. No clues to the above as yet, just in case she pops on by.
She does have a birthday treat this weekend which has now come before the day itself. She has a whole weekend Lambing at the local agricultural college. The lambs have been popping out much earlier than planned so she might miss the births, but she'll have the joy of everything else sheepish. What more could a sheep mad girl who dreams of owning her own flock and dogs really want.
Now about that other thing I finished and wore this week.
Before Christmas I bought Clare Youngs book A Year in Crafts. I loved making the brogues bag from it, although I really wish I hadn't bothered now. There are so many other things in there that I want to try, but it was the stitchy stuff that drew me in at first.
The same day I bought the book I started working on a cardigan of mine transforming it from plain old blue to a stitchy sensation.
Then life happened a lot, so it got ignored on the one day in the future you'll get finished or binned pile.
Then this week my sweet youngest girl was poorly. I sent her to school as I had no childcare and I told her it was easier for me to leave work once school called than me not going in to start with. Quite soon the school nurse called. I cancelled my classes and spent the day with my love, picking up this blue cardigan again.
I'm really thrilled with how it's turned out, it's been worn twice since too.
I think I'll be adding bullions and chains to a fair few knits now I've fallen for this one.
So you see, it seems I've got back my creative head and hands for now.
I'm pretty glad.