Coughs, sneezes and very achey bones have taken over my body this week. Little Bun has been hit too, just in time for my day off, which is good timing for her to have a sofa day with mumma. My Mr has taken Miss Rosey to school in the car so we're well and truly at home today with no means of escape. I'm not moaning in any way shape or form as I've wanted a proper home day where I can rest, stitch and do as I please for a long old while now.
I have managed to get a wee bit of stitchery done lately, but to be honest I've been lacking motivation and inspiration. I'm not sure if being motivated leads to inspiration or if failing to be inspired saps any motivation I might otherwise have had. All week I've planned today as being the day I get it back as I miss my making mojo. I've quite a few things I can be getting on with. I just need to focus on which one and not get easily distracted, apart from cuddles with my sweet girl.
The sunny weather we had over the weekend did give me a wee push to look out my sunshine fabrics and run up a taking projects out and about bag. I've held on to the blue, orange and yellow floral fabric for a while now. Do you have fabric you love so much that you put off cutting into it in case you regret it? This is one of them for me, but in the end I settled on a bag so I'd have it all the time. There's still a fair bit left which could make a tunic for me or if I'm feeling superbly generous - a dress for Miss Rosey - who also likes it.
With my cheery bag in hand I just need to sort myself out now. I'm not sad or low, just not myself you see. I'm in an ok in the middle kind of mood and I want to be a more woohoo lets get on with life kind of me again.
I usually try to avoid talking in too much depth about my feelings, family happenings and life in general for several reasons (which I'm sure is the same for all of us) -
- My blog is a place I choose to write about all the good stuff and the creative parts of my life.
- I don't like having a public moan for obvious reasons. Ironically this can lead to some people thinking the person who only talks about the good has a star spangled life in blogland.
- I also think anyone who visits my blog doesn't come to hear a moaning minnie.
So don't be afeared, I'm not going to moan, but I do feel I need to explain myself a bit so my mood makes sense. I thought I would just say how I feel at the moment. It's all something and nothing really. I've struggled to write an upbeat post all week, although I've wanted to blog. I've not commented on other blogs for a while and have barely read any lately as I just can't find the time or inclination to do anything much. I race from thing to thing not accomplishing half the stuff I want and need to do. All life feels like at the moment is school run, work, buy food, clean the house, feed people and animals then fall asleep on the sofa. I want to find my va voom for thinking up new ideas, hatching plans, seeing friends, wasting time just because I'm having fun and not just dealing with all the have to do stuff.
I'm hoping that hormones are the reason for my oddness as I can't quite put my finger on it. I really do want to find a solution soon as I'm sure life wasn't always so busy that there was little time left for any of the feel good things. I decided on a Dr trip next week for blood tests and whatnot. I think I last went to the Dr for me when I was pregnant with Little Bun.
Right I've got to the stage where I'm fed up writing this, you've probably got fed up before me reading it so let's move on. I just thought a bit of honesty might not be a bad thing for a change and some of you might say don't worry I feel just the same, then I would think that's ok then. Reading this back, it sounds like self-indulgent nonsense now anyway.
Before I pop off here's the proof that my mum's a much quicker knitter than me. Mr Bun was given his Seagulls scarf last Saturday, much to his delight. Even better Alfie Blue was given one to match his best ever mate in the whole wide worlds scarf. Two happy fella's indeed.