Friday, 18 May 2012

I'm so touched by all of your kind and supportive words. Thank you for taking the time to write them, it means a lot. This morning my dearest dad's heart had enough and he died. I'm saying this now when I can as it's just not real in my head at the moment so it's easier to say it. I don't want to hide from the bare fact of it. I'll be back when I can and it'll be normal service of happy. Not because I pretend it's all ok, but because life just goes on and he'd tell me off if I wallowed for too long.


78 comments:

  1. No words from me just a great, huge, massive, big hug. Take great care, thinking of you and your family xxx

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  2. Thinking of you and your family after reading your incredibly sad news.
    Lisa x

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  3. Oh Lisa......I'm so sorry. I just read your last post too. Sending the biggest hugs and prayers to you and your family.

    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  4. awwww Lisa, I am so very, very sorry. How sad for you all. I'll be really thinking of you and sending lots of love over to Norfolk. Sairer xxxx

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  5. Love and prayers to you and your loved ones at this sad time Lisa.
    Victoria xx

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  6. Ohhhh Lisa!!

    Nothing I can say will help you through these extremely sad moments so I just want to send you my most sincere condolences to you and your family.

    Amanda xx

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  7. I have never commented before but feel compelled to now as i too lost my beloved dad recently. However it happens you are never ready for it but, as you say, life does go on and you will get through the sad times ahead. All the while you carry your memories of your dad with you he will only ever be a thought away. This quote has helped me and my 2 daughters a lot over the past few weeks and i often think of it so i'd like to share it with you (you probably already know it anyway)....'If there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, i'll stay there forever' A A Milne....Thinking of you and your family, Karen xxx

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  8. So sorry, my thoughts and prayers with you and yours.x

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  9. I am so very sorry. Sending hugs your way. Lily. xx

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  10. Oh Lisa,

    So sorry to hear this.
    I wish you and your family so much strenght to get to this
    difficult and sad time.
    And please, take your time...
    Unfortunately i know how you feel...

    xxxand a hug.

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  11. So sorry.
    I lost my lovely dad last year. He was my first love and I think about him every day. But please know that it will get easier, a little bit every day. I promise.
    You will be looking after your mum and the Buns and doing lots of running around but make sure you look after yourself too. It's very easy to put yourself last.
    Take care.
    x

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  12. Oh Lisa - I am so sorry to read this. My thoughts are with you & your family xxx

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  13. So sorry, My thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time x x x

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  14. Sending lots of love your way! I'm thinking about you and your family! xxx

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  15. I have never left a comment before but I just want to say i am sorry for your families loss.

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  16. God bless. I lost my sister before Christmas, the numbness before the pain kicks in is a good time to do the things you have to do. So sorry for your loss.

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  17. I'm so sorry - I really thought things couldn't get any worse for you and your family!!

    Remember we will all be here waiting for you, no hurry, just when you are ready to return.
    Look after each other.
    Thinking of you
    -x-

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  18. Sending you and your family lots of love, Lisa.
    Got a lump in my throat now remembering the evening my dad died... I'm sending you a big hug.

    Celia
    xx

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  19. I understand you,my father past away in october,but I didn't realize yet...when I saw him died It was a shock,but already now if someone asks me about my family..it's very difficult to talk about my dear dad.Sorry for you,God bless you and your family.

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  20. Thinking of you and your family x

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  21. I am so sorry Lisa that things are so tough for you right now.

    Thinking of you and your family at this time.



    P x

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  22. My thoughts and prayers are with you xx

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  23. I'm so sorry to hear about your Dad. My thoughts are with you, your Mum and your family. Take care of you and take all the time you need before popping back into blog land.
    Anne xx

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  24. Oh Lisa hun - I am so very sorry. I'm thinking of you sweetie - all my love,

    Nina xxxx

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  25. Hello Lisa, I've just been catching up on your recent posts and I'm so sorry to hear your tragic news. Take good care of yourselves and cherish all those happy times.
    Kate xox

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  26. So sorry to hear about your Dad, Lisa. Take care.
    Hen x

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  27. I'm so sorry, there is nothing anyone can say to make your pain better but just know I'm thinking of you xx

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  28. I am so sorry for your loss. It is a huge shock when your dad dies, a sort of emptiness carries you through the necessaries and you try to make sure the funeral is the best and that your mum is OK. Afterwards I came down mum's road and saw my dad mowing the lawn. I smiled to see him but soon realised it was his friend cutting the grass, they just looked similar from behind. For a second I thought he was still there, it was nice. Now I know he's gone, but he's still here in his garden, in me, in the house, in my children, he's never away, he made us and he is still loved. I can still hear him telling the TV off and muttering about next door's cat near his fish. I still don't park on his grass. Be strong, it eases. Now I go to mums and can still (not really) see him lowering his newspaper and saying hello love as I go in, its nice. He was a good dad so still is. Missed with a smile now, not a tear. Take care, Karen x

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  29. So sorry to hear your sad news Lisa, but I pray you will find the strength to get through the next few days and be a strength for your Mum. It will be a great time to gather and grieve as a family and you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  30. Lisa you are in my prayers! So sorry for the loss of your dad!! May you know how much you are loved! Many hugs to you my dear!! xo Heather

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  31. Having just lost my mum on the 29th April, my heart goes out to you and your family. I'm sure there will be tears and laughter in the next few days and I send my love and big hugs to you all.

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  32. So sorry to hear that Lisa, my thoughts are with you & your family x

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  33. So sad for you Lisa, am thinking of you and your girls x x

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  34. You're in my thoughts,Lisa. Sending you much love xxx

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  35. So sorry to hear your sad news Lisa, just remember all the happy times with your lovely dad and keep smiling, Lucey x

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  36. so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you at this very sad time.

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  37. I'm so sorry to hear. Remember all the happy memories.

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  38. So sorry to hear that :-( I hope all your lovely happy, fun memories of him help you through this really terrible time xxx

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  39. So very sorry to hear of your loss Lisa.

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  40. Oh I'm so, so sorry to read your sad news and what a tough time your family has been having. Sending you and the buns my thoughts x look after yourself through this difficult time x x x

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  41. Oh Lisa, what terribly, dreafully sad news. My thoughts are with you and the rest of the family and sending you love, peace hoping that you'll all find strength from each other in your precious family.

    Take care of yourself, much love Stephxxxx

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  42. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers... I am so very very sorry.
    xoxo
    Karen

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  43. Oh Lisa I am so so sorry, I'm thinking of you all, fliss xxxx

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  44. I know from experience that by the time you get to this message you will be possibly be suffering from sympathy overload and in floods of tears but know that all these thoughts and prayers are with you and over the coming weeks and months we are here for you to talk to whenever you need it.
    Gillxxxx

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  45. I'm so sorry....I know how you feel as my dad died 4 years ago & it was such a shock.

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  46. In time you will remember with happiness not sadness. He did his job well if he has left you all wanting more of him. Look after yourself.

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  47. So sorry to hear of your loss. In our family, we've had quite a few untimely deaths - we have a habit of digging a bloody great big hole and putting in a beautiful plant in their memory. Flissx

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  48. Just to say .... I'm thinking of you. I've spoken to my Dad a lot this week - he died 19yrs ago when I was in my early twenties, but often (particularly when I'm struggling with life) I talk to him in my mind. Like my Dad, yours will always be in your heart too. Take care. XX

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  49. Dad's know best.
    My heart-felt sympathy goes out to you and your family.
    hugs

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  50. Oh I'm so very sorry. My thoughts are with you and your precious family.

    Heather x

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  51. Dearest Lisa
    I have only just read your previous post and now this one. Sweet Lisa, I send you and your mum and family my love and prayers at this very difficult time. Thinking of you all, love and hugs xox Penelope

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  52. So very sorry to hear your sad news, condolences to you and your family and lots of hugs too

    Helen x

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  53. Sending you big hugs Lisa... so sorry to hear your sad news... Jill x

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  54. So sorry to hear your sad news. My Dad was taken by the angels last October the 27th after being diagnosed with leaukemia on the 1st October. It was such a shock and total disbelief very much like you but I can only say that with time it does get easier but I know that you will not be thinking that at the moment. I am thinking of you and your family as this sad, sad time. Big, big hugs, Sam (AKA Dottie May).

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  55. so very sorry to hear your sad news x

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  56. Lisa! Oh Lisa. This is shit. I am just so sorry. I can never find the right words at times like this but one thing I know is it is better to say something than nothing.

    My heart aches for all the roller coaster emotions and fears that will hit you over the next year. And yes, it will be a year at least I'm afraid. It takes a year of anniversaries, birthdays and other events for your heart to process that you dear Dad has gone. What with the grief of losing him and the worry over your Mum and how she is coping with out her sidekick and the two Aunts having a hard time too...and the stupid car blowing up. Good lord, you've had it all thrown at you.

    now take your time, do as you please, we will all be here when you want us, and in the meantime think of yourself and you most loved ones. You'll be in my thoughts.

    Lots of love,

    Gayna x x x

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  57. I am sooooooo sorry I missed your last two posts until now. And so very, very, very sorry for your loss Lisa. Life throws so much at us doesn't it, almost like kicking us when we're down is a favourite pastime. And to lose a loved one is the most devastating thing.

    I know you will all be holding each other up with love, but don't forget, in the middle of worrying about your Mum and your daughters and your aunts, to look after yourself. If you need a space in which to vent we will be here, otherwise we'll be waiting until you're able to join us again.

    Hugest hugs, Annie x

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  58. Hi Lisa I'm so sorry for your sad loss!
    Thinking of you
    Natalie
    x

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  59. Hello Lisa, I am so sorry for your loss. You are absolutely right life does go on and I am sure your dad would want it too. I lost my dad 9years ago now and at first it was very painful, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him but it does get easier. My dad will always be with me and this best way we can celebrate our parents lives is to live ours in a way to make them proud. Take good care of yourself x

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  60. So sorry, and thinking of you, love Claire xx

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  61. Im so sorry, i hope happier days will be with you soon x

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  62. hey Mrs - just popped over to say hello - and that I hope you are holding up...and taking care of you as well as looking after everyone else.
    Thinking of you and sending a bigger than usual hug
    fee x

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  63. like Fee; just a quick visit to say i'm thinking of you and i hope
    your doing fine despite this difficult and sad time.

    xxMaartje

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  64. I am so, so sorry to learn of your loss. Sending love and sympathy. Carol xx

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  65. Lisa my darling girl. I haven't stopped by your blog for a while and now I find this sad sad news. I am so very sorry. Just want you to know that I am thinking of you at this difficult time. I look forward to seeing your happy posts again, in time, when you are feeling up to it. Please take as much time as you need to grieve and gather yourself. We will all be here when you get back. Big love to you my sweet xxx

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  66. I am so very sorry to read your news, you must be hurting so much.

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  67. So sorry Lisa, take care.
    Vivienne xxx

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  68. I'm so sorry. Thinking of you x

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  69. Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm sending lots of love across the pond, and wishing you peace and healing.

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  70. still thinking of you...hope you're doing well xx

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