I'm so touched by all of your kind and supportive words. Thank you for taking the time to write them, it means a lot. This morning my dearest dad's heart had enough and he died. I'm saying this now when I can as it's just not real in my head at the moment so it's easier to say it. I don't want to hide from the bare fact of it. I'll be back when I can and it'll be normal service of happy. Not because I pretend it's all ok, but because life just goes on and he'd tell me off if I wallowed for too long.